I could waste your time with some lies about how I feel just fine, and I’m coping as well as any other person – but I’ve taken to wondering, what is the point of that nonsense anymore?
Countless times I have lied through my teeth to people I love about how I feel, just to keep them feeling happy, and I guess because it makes me feel like less of a burden on them.
But I can’t take it anymore. I can’t bottle it up. I can’t say I’m okay – because quite frankly, I’m not even close, and as much as that hurts to say, it is my truth.
I guess I just have to learn to tell people how I truly feel, when I feel it, because if I don’t then I end up an utter mess, eventually.