PTSD triggers come out of nowhere.
You hear a sound, and just like that, you are terrified. You struggle to breathe properly, your chest tightens so much that you think you could possibly even die – all due to a noise.
Being alone is hard for me because of this. I have never been one to like being alone, and after my trauma occurred this fear heightened tenfold. Then I was diagnosed with PTSD, which although, gave me hope in knowing that I wasn’t a freak for having these reactions, was the biggest blow to my mind yet.
So whenever I am alone, hell, even with someone else in my company – I am scared. I am yet to find something that stops me from feeling this way.
Every waking moment of my life is in terror and I don’t know how to stop it.
This isn’t just the being alone and hearing things factors, it’s the flashbacks and vivid nightmares. It never ends.
I just want it to end.
Please, let it end.