The pain I feel is unmeasurable to anything I have ever felt before.
Yet, I hide it.
Purely for the sake of others, much to my dismay.
For when you open up to a person you become vulnerable, and when that happens, they can break your heart ten times over with a sentence. Or even a lackthereof.
And I’m not sure which hurts more, but I do know they both hurt an awful lot.
So I guess me hiding my internal suffering is a sort of defense mechanism, because my mind can’t take anymore crushing blows while it’s in the state it’s in.