No one understands the pain I feel, the crippling loneliness and severe lack of self worth.
I am starting to believe the problem lies within, much to my displeasure.
Riddled with nightmares and flashbacks, and though medicated for this exact reason – they return.
I feel as though I have no purpose in this life, and in turn, I lose my will to live.
I wouldn’t end it all, that’s just completely out of the question due to my nature, but the thoughts of doing so flood my brain.
I just want it all to stop.
I just wish it didn’t happen.
I just want a fucking reason to live.
The not-so secret life of a manic depressant. 
May 7th, 2016 at 3:24 pm
Do one positive thing for yourself today to make it a reason to live. Do two tomorrow. Doing positive things was the only way I got out of that hole.
May 8th, 2016 at 2:33 am
I don’t know why you are struggling the way you are, but I cannot help but see myself in your writing. Sexual abuse is what creeps in my mind. Your writing is amazing, you have a gift. The other comment is good advice. You need to get out of the house and force yourself to live. Wishing you well.
May 8th, 2016 at 5:09 am
Sexual abuse unfortunately is what a lot my pain comes back to as well. Thank you for your kind words, much love to you x
May 8th, 2016 at 3:05 am
Stay strong, it may not seem like it now but it will pass x
May 8th, 2016 at 5:08 am
Thank you so much x I need the reminder sometimes
May 8th, 2016 at 5:18 am
I cannot tell you how relatable this piece is. Weather you know this or not,you truly help the rest of us realize that we aren’t alone with these same feelings and thoughts.
One Love. ❤
May 8th, 2016 at 5:19 am
Thank you so much ❤
January 14th, 2018 at 9:59 pm
If you find a reason let me know!?! Alas…never give up! I push forth if for no other reason than to shut the people who “expect” me to “fail” and “give-up” the Hell up! Yes FUCK…Fuck everyone else…but keep fighting…