Hi everyone,
It’s been a while since I’ve written anything that has been about me.
It’s not that I have lost touch with my blog. More the fact that I am trying to improve my writing. Doing this in a creative manner seems to help me improve. But now it’s time for an update on what’s been going on for me and my disorders.
I have gone through a recent bout of mania, in which I was so very, very up.
For once, I did not grind my teeth, which was really good. However, I also didn’t sleep very much. I was absolutely buzzing.
I spoke so much that no one could keep up with me; hell, I couldn’t even keep up with me!
My mother actually said that she had never heard me talk so much in my entire life. And I believe her there, that’s for sure.
I had restless thoughts, my sex drive went through the roof and my drug usage increased dramatically.
I fidgeted around for probably about a month, or just over.
By the end, I was extremely paranoid and suffering from mild hallucinations. In these hallucinations, I seemed to have gone back to old ways, in the way that they were based around people coming to get me or break into my house. I heard noises. I knew it was the Mania but I feared for my life, anyway.
At times, I was incredibly irritable. I snapped every now and then at tiny little comments or incidences.
I became extremely clean, bathing myself at least four times a day. I would wash my hair and brush my teeth very frequently.
I had an incident where I fainted or had a seizure. This was extremely traumatising. I spent seven hours in hospital waiting for answers, and didn’t really receive many. However, the nurses and doctors clued onto my highly manic state and called my psychiatrist. I am very thankful for this, as I was not able to see him until mid-September. This appointment has been pushed forward to next week, and my Abilify increased.
Unfortunately, I must go back on Valium. I am quite annoyed about this but that’s just the way it goes with life with Bipolar!
I hope everyone has been well, and once again; I apologise for my absence!