To be blunt,
her mind was a fucking bully.
It tormented her with the worst of all thoughts,
over and over,
every fucking day of her life.
And when your mind is treating you less than human,
naturally,
this affects your body in terrible ways also.
She was constantly riddled with thoughts of hatred and anger,
sadness and worthlessness,
and this lead to dreaded anxiety.
Of course this began to change her body in a negative manner.
Constantly ill,
and never able to shake it.
Fight or flight, baby, and she was losing woefully.