and the worst part is there’s no one else to blame.
Absolutely soul crushing lows followed by bouts of extreme, radical mania. Waiting, praying, for a break; for a “normal” phase. Wanting to someone to blame, but forever falling short. For it is no one else’s fault that Bipolar exists within you. It’s not even yours. It’s the luck of the draw. Some come up short and get tested with mental illness like Bipolar Disorder. It hurts at times to have such a crippling condition, you just want someone to be the blame for your suffering – so you can take it out on them. But there is no one to blame. So you blame yourself. You hurt yourself and you loathe yourself. But you must remember, it is not your fault, either.
It’s nobody’s fault. It’s what you’ve been given and with that you have two choices – try your hardest to fight it, or crumble under the pressure. Sometimes it feels impossible not to crumble under the pressure, but that does not make you less of a person. Keep fighting. Keep pushing. Keep taking steps to better your life. Stop the blame game. Accept what is yours and do what you can with it.
You’ve got this.